Sunday, March 21, 2010
i know this is going to sound insane
heys heys just came here to update yall.... seeing how i rarely use the computer nowadays and i guess i wont be using it much in the near future either... thats coz.... im going back to school.... yahhhh i know it sounds insane and all but i got accepted to retain... i know yall must be thinking like no, just go on with life, find other options and all...
but when i consider things, i dont really want to go nie. and now neither do i want to go to ntu. as for poly, the main issue is three years and i get a dip plus i have to adapt to the new lifestyle there (not saying that i cant but i just have this feeling that itll be hard for me) and somehow i just dont want to go to poly either. the only thing in my mind right now is to cheong for As. like really really cheong like i never cheong in my life before. and get that As that i need to get into nus. yahhh.... i wanna get into nus. retaining another year is worth it as long as i get into nus. be it business or fass.
so now that ive got that goal in mind, distinct and clear goal of where i wanna go, ill work hard to get to it. i know i will and i can. previously, i didnt have a goal in mind. like go where my results can get me to. but now, no. i know where i wanna go and im gonna work towards it. make sure i get to it. it's not everyday that i get a second chance to repeat a part of my life. so yuhhh. i'd better make good and full use of it and get it this time around.
i know it's easy to say all this now. like oh i can do it. and everything. saying is easy. doing is another thing. so i shouldnt say. just do. i know going through the whole thing again is going to be another tough round and shitty and all. but gotta kick procrastination in the butt and away from me. gotta persevere on and not give up. i hope i have enough determination and motivation to pull me through this one. i know this is what i want.
i havent applied for nie and ntu and i dont intend to although my vp and teacher asked me to apply for it. but i know that that is not what i want. even if i get into nie, it still is the last option to me. i know teaching is not bad, it's a stable job and all, and im not saying teaching is bad but i just cant let myself go down that road when i dont really have a passion for teaching. like i cant force myself to do something that i know is not what i want to do. teaching is not bad, it's just, not for me. and the same goes to ntu. if i apply and if i get in, it will most probably be the course that i dont want to get into.
but i dont know. no harm trying right? if its successful, can always reject. but i know im not applying for nie. sigh. dont know lahhhhh....... all that is going thru my head now is cheong cheong cheong for As and get the results i want and go into nus.
btw no news from kw lehhh.... and and how was gan's results? i didnt hear anything about his also lehh....
in the meantime, yall take care and jiayous in whatever yall are doing aite? gotta work hard no matter where we go... hope to cyall soon (;
-lizzie ;)
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